Eighty per cent of people who think about or attempt suicide have sent out a warning sign to those around them , however, few will make a direct request for help to deal with their suicidal thoughts.
Story 171
Seven years ago I swallowed a bottle of pills in front of my 15-year-old daughter and husband. It had been during an extreme argument with my daughter with her saying she should just kill herself.
I had for years been depressed and had thought of suicide on a daily basis. This was the moment I snapped. In my mind I could think of no other way to get through to her than to dump the bottle full of pills into my hand, take a glass of water, and say "You want to kill yourself? This is how it's done!"
Then I swallowed the pills in front of them.
Then I told them if they wanted to save me to take me to the hospital.
The next day I woke up in a hospital bed. My husband, daughter and younger daughter were by my bed.
Honestly, I was disappointed to wake up. But, then I saw how scared and hurt they were. Then I was sorry for what I had done to them.
Since then I have thought of suicide but know that that it is tragic for the family and is a hurt that can never be undone.
Today I live with the thought that I am here for a reason and when it is God's time to take me then I will go. I do believe living is harder than dying. I do believe I was born for a purpose and when that is accomplished I will be released.
Until then I try to remind myself of how I am blessed and try to appreciate the wonders of the world and the people in it.